Man. This week has been full of a lot of shit. First I learn that one of my best friends and awesome girls in my life Ashley has to have open heart surgery. My ex is startin shit with one of my other great friends Alisha, I've found out I'm one of the most boring guys in the world. I'm still fucking single. I still can't get a job. I still can't find a car. And I still can't use my grandma's car to practice. I need to get my license...seriously. Life has been good and shitty at the same time. I'm so worried about Ashley...I really fucking love her...I don't want anything to happen to her. I don't know man...what the hell is going on lately? Everyones been in the shits...why? Why is life kicking everyones ass? I wish it'd be so much easier, but its not. Fucking a. I'm going to find a way to turn all this shit around into something positive. I swear I will. Well, I'm out. Later ya'll.